The Bombing of Dresden......War Crime?

I was sitting talking to a co-worker of mine and the thought of senseless bombings came up and Dresden was the topic. The use of incendiaries to me was an assault on the civilain population and nothing more. There were no factories, airfields or major military buildup. There were railroads nearby that were bombed, but were up and running 2 days later.
Out of 28,410 houses in the inner city of Dresden, 24,866 were destroyed. An area of 15 square kilometres was totally destroyed, among that: 14,000 homes, 72 schools, 22 hospitals, 18 churches, 5 theatres, 50 banks and insurance companies, 31 department stores, 31 large hotels, 62 administration buildings as well as factories such as the Ihageee camera works. In total there were 222,000 apartments in the city. 75,000 of them were totally destroyed, 11,000 severely damaged, 7,000 damaged, 81,000 slightly damaged.
The precise number of dead is difficult to ascertain and is not known. Estimates are made difficult by the fact that the city and surrounding suburbs which had a population of 642,000 in 1939 was crowded at that time with up to 200,000 refugees, and some thousands of wounded soldiers. The fate of some of the refugees is not known as they may have been killed and incinerated beyond recognition in the fire-storm, or they may have left Dresden for other places without informing the authorities. Earlier reputable estimates varied from 25,000 to more than 60,000.
All those inocent woman and children, schools and sick innocent people some actually giving birth in hospitals. I can't imagine growing up in that time being there seeing children as young as mine running, crying and dying.
These are the thoughts I get that make me look for spiritual guidance. Maybe thats why I love the teachings of Meher Baba, I don't know . Maybe I just love life too much to see it just get sensesly destroyed with a decision from someone who doesn't care.

The Prayer of Repentance...Meher Baba

Of all the prayers for forgiveness this is the one I have come to love and keep in my pocket please don't hesitate to print and hold this. It will make you feel better......michael


We repent, O God most merciful; for all our sins;for every thought that was false or unjust or unclean; for every word spoken that ought not to have been spoken;for every deed done that ought not to have been done.We repent for every deed and word and thought inspired byselfishness, and for every deed and world and thought inspired by hatred. We repent especially for every lustful thought and every lustful action; for every lie; for all hypocrisy; for every promise givenbut not fulfilled, and for all slander and back-biting.Most especially also, we repent for every action that has brought ruin to others; for every word and deed that has given otherspain; and for every wish that pain should befall others.In your unbounded mercy, we ask You to forgive us, O God, for all these sins committed by us, and to forgive us for our constant failures to think and speak and act according to Your Will.



In the front hall of the Meher Pilgrim Centre this message from Meher Baba has been posted:

I may give you more, much more than you expect, or maybe nothing, and that nothing may prove to be everything. So I say, come with open hearts to receive much or nothing from the Divine Beloved. Come to receive not so much of My words but of My Silence.
— Meher Baba

Bob Carlos Clarke......Bio and Pictures

I read Pete's Diaries and I thought I would post this for folks to look at and maybe find out what a great photographer he was. He shot very erotic scenes for portrait and commercial use. I researched his work and am facinated and I hope you will be too..... go to http://www.panicpictures.net and you can see more.......thanks Pete


Carlos Clarke has a reputation as being a photographer of striking versatility as well as one of the world's finest photographic printmakers. After moving to England in 1964, he worked in journalism and advertising before electing in 1970 to study design; his interest in photography bloomed during his first year of studies and by 1975 he had completed an MA in photography at the Royal College of Art.
Within a few years Carlos Clarke was established as a first-call fashion, portrait and commercial photographer - he has since done campaigns for Smirnoff and Volkswagen, among numerous others - and as an auteur image-maker with a line in mysterious, imaginative and erotic monochrome photographs.
Carlos Clarke is perhaps most celebrated for the series of books he has produced, the majority of which transport the brilliant technique of his advertising work into a world of voyeurism, drama and sensuality. After making an illustrated version of Anaïs Nin's erotic classic Delta of Venus and the well-received solo book Obsession in the early 80s, Carlos Clarke landed a worldwide hit in 1995 with The Dark Summer, a book whose unconventionally sensual imagery and flawless black and white photography made it a word-of-mouth bestseller.
In 1987, Carlos Clarke shot White Heat in the frenetic kitchens of the then up-and-coming chef Marco Pierre White - capturing, in Carlos Clarke's words, 'the passion and violence that was never seen in the effete world of . jovial cooks'. His most recent book, Insatiable, ventures into Carlos Clarke's personal obsessions and, in drawing together many of the strands of his photographic practice, emerges as a deft and unsettling mixture of female nudes, photojournalism and still-life.
Carlos Clarke's monochrome still-lifes rank as some of his most beautiful and subversive works. While reveling in encrustations of detail, his close-ups of weathered and heavily patinated serving-forks are also strangely fetishistic, particularly when considered in the context of Carlos Clarke's more overtly sexual imagery; their elongated tines come to resemble a woman's long legs. He has described sensual imagery in general as 'a delicate conspiracy between the imagination and the evidence'.

Halleluiah......A quick recording and Dish on the Dirt

I did this in one take, it needs some cleanup but I just wanted to play this song.. Just click and paste...http://s52.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=11H7RR0PPPQA63DI90U74PN7OX or.... this one.....

01 Halleluiah.wma


Also here is my first recording of Dish on the Dirt. Im trying different things on this...you can hear Jonathan in back of me. I would like to hear comments about this one. The styles ect.... just click and paste....Again very first take and I will like comments good or bad to see what I should add as far as styles drums etc.......
http://s52.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=30CTSC2LE8M6K0S8U23DSM9CDW or....

01 Dish on the Dirt.wma

Ahhhh Anxiety....my old freind is back

"Sometimes at night I wake up and my body's like ice The sound of the running wild stallion, the noise of the m-mice"

I'm tryin to figure it out.... why I get this way.... Waking up with ice cold chills, cold sweats etc. I havent been using drugs. Maybe when Its (life) been crazy and total chaos I get this way and my body is looking for drugs. I don't know. But when I used to get this way the only way to cure it was to use drugs. I would just nod off and feel the warmth after.

"The mosquito's sting brings a dream but the poisons derange"

I guess with all success we have to deal with other crap. Just like Rachel is dealing with and Pete has done in the past and I'm sure a lot of you bloggers have done. I will deal with the situation and handle it....thats all.
Any way it was my best month ever in my career. The biggest money month I have had ever. Sherry is happy. Now we are having the house painted. We are looking at homes on the water in the Gulf to buy now. The prices are up there but it seems we have a handle on the finances and my future here seems great. I will post picture to get your thoughts of where to go. Of course it will have to be a 4 bedrrom with a bonus studio room. Thats all I want my own space.......
Nothing else to write about nothing exciting going on. The Anxiety thing has me worried but Im not at panic mode.......... yet

My New Song " Dish on the Dirt"

Here is a song I just wrote and it will be an up tempo feel


Wake me,
Break me,
get on my chest and stake me
I'm not going to take your crap no more.

Grab me,
Nab me,
break my arms and stab me.
Im not going to let you bring me down no more

chorus
Dish on the dirt
Ill take what you throw
I'm not going to let you treat me this way
Dish on the dirt
you wont make me cry
I not letting your words hurt me no more

Feel me,
Steal me,
you wont see the real me
Im not letting you see the real inside

Drink me,
sink me,
Don't let the boys think of me
As a man who let people get in his way

chorus
Dish on the dirt
I'll take what you throw
I'm not going to let you treat me this way
Dish on the dirt
you won't make me cry
I won't let your words hurt me no more


Bridge
Years ago I would let it happen
let others tell me what to do or say
As I got older I've become more wiser
and I'm tellin' ya now, Yeah I'm tellin' you now.......
GET OUT OF MY WAY

(lead)

Fight me,
Bite me,
Spit at me to spite me
You still can't get on my nerves no more

Thrill me,
Kill me,
Got in my head and drill me
Your not going to push me around no more

chorus x2
Dish on the dirt
I'll take what you throw
I'm not goig to let you treat me this way
Dish on the Dirt
You can't make me cry
I wont let you words, no I won't let your words
hurt me no more....

by Michael Zielinski
Thanks to Gary and Sully for inspiration......and of course Sherry who made it all posible...:)

So many good things...I love it!!!!

There are so many things going on with everybody in Blogland that I feel I have to catch up. I know it sounds crazy but that's how I am. Rachel, with "The Attic, the Store, New Music Recording, the Camper. Pete, New CD, The Method, The Forums, The Tour, The Mini Opera, Neew Songs. Mikey, The CD, New Music, The Attic, his Blog, Writing new Songs. Gary, his Blog, New Music, IAC Website, Recording, Balarina Gurl, Websites, Podcasts etc.
Me, ummmmmmmmmm, ok lets see................wait I think of it.............Ok recording? been a while........writing that's it!!!....No,..............Oh Yeah Work, Work, Work, Work and more Work. That's all I've been doing. Sure I'm making money and it's actually more than I've ever made but I'm missing the important stuff that makes me sane and not fall off the wagon.
I posted a while ago that boredom makes me want to use. Well it also happens when I'm going crazy and things are going well. It's hard to explain but ez'addicts will tell you and maybe Pete said this too that when you are doing great you have the urge to use drugs agian. Maybe it's because I have a low self esteem about myself and I don't think I deserve what I am getting even though I do deserve it. Anyway, today I'm getting out early and I'm going to record some music. I think I will polish up my little 15 minute short story I wrote and write a short story with it. I can have my sister draw some pictures to go with the story line and I will burn a cd to go along with it.....that's the ticket.......

Yard work sucks....... Not the music either

Well Sherry had a great idea!!! Let's remove all the mulch around the whole friggin house and replace it with river rock. Ok I said, call the landscaper and handle it. She calls back "The landscaper said that it would be cheaper to remove the mulch ourselves". Ok I'll do that. I broke my friggin back doing it too.
Thats not the screwed up part. Thursday she had 7 yards of river rock delivered and dumped on the driveway. I said "when is the landscaper coming to put it around the house?" She said "Its cheaper for us/YOU to do it....." What the hell!!!!!!
And I had to do it????? When? Oh yeah,,,,, On my only day off!!! 7 friggin yards of heavy friggin rock!!! On my only friggin day off!!!! Fuck This!!!! And oh by the way I had to get it done because its my son Matty's birthday on Sunday.
So today is Saturday, and I can't move any friggin part of my body. I mean nothing!!! I thought working 70 hours a week so we can afford to have companies do this shit was the whole reason for this (avoiding pain). I guess not.
Well I learned a lesson: When it's time to do yardwork---sell the house!!!